lasarahjoy

I realized recently that I've moved from the realm of art to the realm of practicality with what I do. When I sew, I do it to mend clothes. When I take pictures, it's of notes a friend took. When I bake, it's for an event I'm helping with. When I sing, I do it to get a good grade. I feel like I'm being more efficient at my work, but I've lost part of my creative outlet. I used to feel wonderful when I did art because I could share it with others and make people happy. When I sew now, I'm trying to quickly fix rips in clothing so the owner will give me money or chocolate as payment. When I take pictures now, it's so I can take a picture of a page instead of checking out a library book. When I bake now, it's because people need mass-produced cupcakes. When I sing now, it's for my class and I get 30 pieces of critique per every 1 compliment. I just feel like I'm going wonderful places with my career, but I'm sacrificing my creativity to get there. Is it healthy? Is it worth it?